I gotta be honest, I don’t know why I maintain this blog anymore. Maybe I just need to revitalize it and do something with it, but the biggest problems for me seem to be:
- A general lack of time.
- A general lack of motivation.
- A general lack of purpose.
I have those things (time, motivation, purpose) in other aspects of my life: my usual vocation, family life, religious life, and my Grand Commandery duties. However, it seems like my ability to muster that triad for my local masonic organizations and my individual esoteric studies (masonic and otherwise). For example — the Fort Worth Masonic Podcast is, for all intents and purposes, defunct, and I don’t have the bandwidth to even think about reviving it.
I was warned about this, a long time ago, by several people. Life happens! Work happens, family happens, and masonic burnout is very real. Adjustments happen, naturally or otherwise, and need to. I got involved in Masonry before I was married (before I was even dating my now-wife!) and before we had our son. Now, 2-1/2 years into fatherhood… priorities are just different.
Lately, I’ve been fundraising on the side for Grand Commandery purposes (in Texas, we are financially responsible for our own Grand Conclave expenses). Maybe I can restructure this website around moving merchandise rather than blogging into the void.
Much love to all my brethren in Masonry.